I need a break...

....from work, I have another two weeks to go before I can.  I'm feeling really tired not sure if its the time of year or the fact that Ive still got this stupid cough and cold but I'm feeling really down today and strange.  Its not helping because I'm having withdrawal symptoms of not being around my boyfriend each weekend.  Due to all the things that happened last year things just changed for me mentally and I just cant cope anymore with a relationship right now.  So we are trying to go out separate ways but Its really hard, I feel guilty on an almost hourly basis because his feelings havent changed but mine did, its really strange because I cant put my finger on when or why it did.  Ive now got to learn to do things for myself once more and learn to go out by myself.  Before I met him I went everywhere with my parents and then with just him so Ive got to get out on my own or Ill end up becoming a recluse.