So Holosync is working...

..... Thought id give you an update on my Holosync adventures.  Well ive done two weeks of the Dive music and now im on Dive and the Immersion which totals and hour a day of meditation.  Ive been feeling quite serene and calm and things that would normally have me slatting things across the room in a fit of violence and frustration I have now just dealt with in a calm and effcient manner which is good going for me. 

Last night I suddenly had an emmense overwhelm. Somethign that was very traumatic that happened to me last year that I had bottled up suddenly came to the surface quite by suprise because most of the day Id felt quite happy and chipper but I went to bed and whoosh all these emotions in relation to this traumatic time came out, guilt, anger, confusion.  I have tried very hard to do what the instructions say and just "let it be okay" and not to try and stuggle with it just let it run its course without resistance and im feeling a lot calmer now.  I had a good old cry and this morning im sufferning from a real anxiety thing going on, butterflies in my stomach, trotting to the loo a lot, feeling quite knotted up but im just letting it be, and not struggling with it and im managing and like the Holosync instructions say it may feel uncomfortable now but it means that its working and its getting all the terrible polluting feelings and emotions that are inside me out in the open and dealt with and let go and afterwards Ill feel so much better.  Im finding it amazing some of the things that are coming out.  All sorts of guilt things were coming up last night, things Ive said and done in the past that caused people upset, or things I got told off about and id bottled them up. 

I went cycling yesterday, I managed to get my bike in my Aygo, yes thats right I managed to get a bike (without the wheels on) inside a Toyota Aygo and it took some doing I can tell you!  But I did, its not perfect but I have no other way of getting a bike with me.  I did about 4 miles in total and it was nice to go alone because I went out my own speed.  My bottom is really sore though, my legs were killing me last night but not too bad this morning.

Oh and a friend/colleague at work today asked me if I had lost weight because she things I have! *does happy dance*