19 posts from July 2009

Do you remember your dreams?

This last week I definately have. In fact have been having some very vivid almost symbolic dreams and Ive put them on a paranormal forum I frequent asking for peoples views on them, some were very enlightening and seem to tell that I am making progress in my mediations and I am going to start reaping the rewards but I may lose people along the way who do not appreciate my journey.

had a vile dream last night though, dreamt that I had one of those huge black millipedes sticking out of my leg and I had to shake my leg to get it to come out and it left a huge wound, *gags* ugh horrible.

Swine Flu after going to London on Saturday.  Sunday afternoon started to feel unwell, kept getting a fever feeling really hot and dizzy and lost all my energy.  Felt the same yesterday and went to bed in the afternoon I started to think uh oh, but I feel much better today.  Maybe I was just over tired, I did a lot of walking over the weekend, London is quite stressful and I havent been sleeping very well.  I keep getting a recurring dream, its the same thing each time but a different scenario that the theme occurs in.  Each time its me in what I believe is a life changing event or situation and everybody around me doesnt give a hoot, nobody will help me and everybody walks on by or pretends tells me they are too busy to help me.  The first dream I was being stalked by a teacher at a school who proceeded to attack me with witnesses but when my parents come to see what is wrong me and find me crying and bawling my eyes out in distress the witnesses just stand there and dont come forward to explain what has happened.  The second dream I was pregnant and in a hospital supposidly there to give birth but everybody around me was being seen to and dealt with and I was left frantically running around a corridor trying to get people to help me and trying to ask why Ive been forgotten and people just rush on by my mother is in this dream also, shes there but not there and my dads not in it at all.  The third dream on the following night was the same thing again except its my wedding. There is no bridegroom, just me in a wedding dress wanting to know why my wedding hasnt been arranged and scurrying around trying to ask people to help me to prepare and everybody is too busy.  I ask about the food and my mother just shrugs and says oh well just have to knock up a simple buffet or something and there is no bar and people keep asking for strange drinks Ive never heard of and nobody will help me with my hair.  Fortunately I didnt have the dream last night, last night I was telling a colleague a really personal secret about myself that I afterwards regret saying and then feel relieved when I wake up and realise I never really told her and I also get drawn to a window display that has live guinea pigs in the window (I love guinea pigs!) and there is a man next to me looking at them to and then he starts flirting with me and holding my hand etc and it turns out he is the man that the psychic lady in the Mind Body Spirit fair months ago told me I would meet this year, anyway hes really nice and I get the fluttery falling in love feeling when he holds my hand.  Sigh

Weird dreams or what? I know that they mean something I truly believe this are signifcant dreams that Im being sent but I just dont understand what they are trying to tell me.  I need to find a dream analyser I think.

Going up town now to get my hair chopped off, My hairs gone quite long and Im hankering for a bit of a change, I hate going to the hairdressers god knows what Ill look like when I get back.

How cool is this cushion!

Kitty Cat Pop Art Cushion

.....ive had myself a nice Treat myself day where ive done nothing but do emotional releasing on stuff thats been bugging me for years and I feel so much better.  Ive also done an hours meditation and also 40 minutes Reiki treatment on myself including my Hatsurei Ho which I always forget to do cept my Reiki teacher says its a necessity that I should do at least once a day. 

I feel very chilled out today.  The cat likes me too today because I gave in and turned the radiators on for the afternoon.  Shes a happy cat now.

.......de-frosting the freezer that is.  Been putting it off for ages but Ive done it and feel so much better now.  Yipeee!  The hairdryer did the trick! flooded the kitchen floor despite putting towels down.  Oh well tis done now.  

...now

The Sedona Method

Hale Dwoskin

it seems to be working so far, Ive tried releasing quite a few emotions and anxiety that normally cripple me physically with a bad stomach and stress in my muscles, I am a walking stress-head and boy do I feel good! I mean I feel kind of euphorically light and fluffy today.

When is okay to lie?

Well I dont know if its okay or not but I can own up to lying and covering up things from my family.  Things that they dont know ive done or gone through and I did it because I didnt want them suffering the hurt I was going through.  They dont really need to know so why add more suffering and worry onto more people.  And so because of this they dont know many things about my life.

....... As I am now on holiday for two and half weeks *yay*  I decided to get some longstanding things done and dusted.  So this morning I sat on the phone calling different places up to niggly things out that I havent had to do before.  So I calls Virgin Media to complain and ask for a replacement cable tv box because the one Ive got breaks down 3 times a week.  Now we are all used to telephone customer service and being on hold.  Today I called expecting to be put on hold but now they have been so kind as to give us a choice yes I got asked what type of music I would like to hear whilst I am waiting!!!!  OMG I could have cried laughing or just cried. Has it come to this?  Yes I got about 6 options from Pop, Classical, R&B, and some other genres.  Crazy!

So they are coming out on Wednesday morning to hopefully replace my box, lets hope he doesnt spot that the box is full of cat hair *cough*

Been trying to call the docs all morning and cant get through :-<

........ Im freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

I have two and a half weeks off work and it starts at 4pm.  Its my mothers birthday too so going out for a curry yum yum. Im starvinggggg I ate my measily cheese sandwiches at 11oclock this morning because I was hungry and now I could eat a scabby rat.

The new beta weekend of Aion starts tonight too.  I need to wash my hair when I get in it feels greasy, but you dont wanna know that.

...... I was thinking about the future and if and when I did decide to start doing Reiki properly I thought about what would I call myself.  So after spending the entire day trying to think of a good name and most of the good names peopel are already using.  I wanted Bliss Holistics but its already used by quite a few people.  I ended up with Arcadia Holistics.  I decided to call it Holistics because then it leaves it open for anything else I might train on in the future.  There are a few Arcadia Health spas etc but I think its a good name  So ive bought arcadiaholistics.co.uk.

I used to own quite a few domains but lve let them lapse.  I used to own Broceliande.co.uk because I had a website on Arthurian Legends and it got quite a few visitors in its time.  I also owned mooncradle.co.uk  I think I still own that one, cant remember...haha.  .co.uk's are good value, only £6 for two years.  Ive done a prettier holding page on google sites and forwarded the domain to that.